clean clothes

Nothing like coming home to a clean house and clean clothes. I've been trying to get everything ready for the trip and all I think is, "I'm coming in at 5AM in the morning Monday, November 10 and will be at work by 11:30, all I want is clean clothes to get into." It sounds like something that is 2nd nature but after being in the mountains, to me, it sounds like a must.

As I told you before, the more I read about this trip, the more I am scared and unsure what I'm doing. Jun at the gym told me, "you'll have a lot of spiritual experiences on this trip." Well it's true, I'm sure I'll be talking to God and asking him to help me thru the down spell I might be feeling at the time. I might even try to barter. For all you know, I might even have to give up sushi. Let's hope that God doesn't take away too many of my wants and desires. Now if you told me, he was making me give up sex. We'll that's easy, it hasn't happened in a long while and well, I can give that up till the New Year anyhow. But sushi? Wine? Now that's another thing.

Let's be real here. Going thru an experience like this, I'll be asking myself all sorts of questions. I've read a few books to try to keep my mind quiet, but there becomes a point where we do question our experiences. The mystics used to hear God. I think it was because they starved themselves from food. Well hey, I'm going to starve myself from oxygen so who knows.

With in hours, I'll know a hell more about myself and what I am made of. Am I made to run a hundred miles? That is the real question. I'd like to make this a test to see if I could ever run 100 miles straight thru. The goal? Well, next May will tell the truth. That is our next step on this journey called life.

For now, I'll just have a hat, sunscreen, and maybe sunglasses to help me along the way. What about you? What makes you challenge yourself the way you do? What makes you pull thru when someone says you can't do it? What make you different from others?

Tell me.