For the past 2 days, I've been at the hospital with mom. She needed to undergo knee replacement surgery and at 74 it seemed to be really scary for her. I found that the day of the surgery, she had me going down streets the wrong way and just got my nerves up. All I could think about was, when am I going to get a run in, but that was selfish.
She had a long way to go before her so I knew it was about her and not about my task on hand. I needed to be all her support systems as know one else in the family was there for her even though she asked. I knew I had to come thru and so I did.
What did this have to teach me? I have to admit, that I needed to just let everything in. Later in the day while, I settled in reading, 'five people you meet in heaven,' I realized what I needed was just to distress. Just as she needed to let in her anger and fear on me the day of surgery, I needed to let things go as well. I usually have my workouts to do this, but even as I came back from my workout it was still there.
The more I pushed her, the more she pushed back. What I did notice was that her effort to get better was stronger than ever. She seem to struggle with each exercise but with a grin on her face, she was willing to try again. I think that is what we have in us most. We will prove to be right.
I will let her lesson teach me something out there in the himalayas when I WANT out. I will remind myself on her face and her tenacity to go at it when still in pain to get to the outcome. I will. I will. I will get there. And of course so will she. By the time I get to India, she will be waiting to hear about my stories, and by the morning I will await what she has to teach me before I go. Time will only tell.
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Nic, remember what I have told you, remember your "Pilates and Yoga persona', take some deep breaths, and exhale. This too shall pass. Use this excercise with Mom as a learning tool to further enhance yourself for the greater good. You realize it already, just put in to action what you have stated in your blog, and remember, all will be well, with Mom, and yourself....
Mike :-)
Nic, remember what I have told you, remember your "Pilates and Yoga persona', take some deep breaths, and exhale. This too shall pass.
Use this excercise with Mom as a learning tool to further enhance yourself for the greater good. You realize it already, just put in to action what you have stated in your blog, and remember, all will be well, with Mom, and yourself....
Mike :-)
Hang in there, Mom!! You will be much better real soon, and out in the garden, again, before you know it.
You, too, Nicole. Both of you are in my thoughts, daily, and hoping the gods smile lovingly on you both.
Best karma to you, always
great blog i hope your mom is doing well you all are in my prayers god bless
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